How are you today? Feeling good? Feeling 'I don't know?' Feeling rocked a bit? All of that is normal. Isn't that nice to hear? Sometimes, all you need is to hear a voice other than your own say, 'you're normal.' And it's true. Whether you are flying high or you are walking through the shadows, it's a normal part of being alive and breathing.
The other day, I was walking and praying. Praying is conversation/interaction with God... simple, with no rules. On this particular day, conversations that I had been having with myself (can you relate?!) deep down finally busted up to my conscious thoughts. Whoa! It's always a mix of shock and relief when those moments hit. Honesty came tumbling out as I walked back and forth between my kitchen and living room. The more the honesty came, the quicker my steps became.
I found myself saying rather loudly to Him, "I cannot do this. My heart cannot do this. My heart doesn't want to do this. My heart is tired."
In one swift moment, Truth rushed to my heart and ears. "Oh, yes you can."
I stopped talking, ears perked.
There was a firmness to the truth. A strong hand to it. Not harsh, but strong. As if His tone was to say, 'Feelings are indicators but they are not truth. Hear the truth now and run, little girl. Run.'
And the truth kept tumbling out:
"Oh yes, Abi, yes you can keep going. Because your heart doesn't have to be strong.... I AM YOUR HEART. I am the life within your heart. Do not say, my heart cannot do this because you are right. Your heart absolutely cannot do this and it doesn't have to. My heart is your heart. You are IN CHRIST. A new creation. You are new. You are not you. I am you. You are me. I am your heart muscle. I am the blood pumping through it. I am the strength of your heart. I am life. I am not fatigued. I am alive and I am the strong heart that carries every bit of weariness you feel in your heart. I swallow your weariness in my strength. I AM NOT WEARY. And this, my heart, is yours. So it is yours to claim. Yours to wear. Yours to believe. Yours to feel. Yours."
Put your name where mine is. Take it for your own!
Immediately Psalm 73:26 started rolling through my mind, "My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. " HE is the strength of my heart!
What else can I possibly add to that?!
He has a strong heart, and He gave it and keeps giving it to us. Dang. If that doesn't change the lighting in the room, I don't know what does!
Carry on my strong friends!
Honest and Strong Hearted Abi
.....who got tired of trying to take a selfie making my face look like I would if we were sitting face to face and talking about this. Executing that was above my pay grade :). I would probably smile at some point, so here's a smile today - from me straight to your heart.